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[00:01:00] This is Optimal Relationships Daily. How Depression Almost Broke My Relationship. By New Life Outlook of Healthline.com. It was a crisp fall Sunday when my boyfriend, B, surprised me with a gift card for a nearby boarding facility. He knew I had been missing horseback riding. I had taken lessons from the age of 8, but stopped when the barn sold a few years prior.

[00:01:25] Since then, I'd gone on a few trail rides and taken a few drop-in lessons, but nothing felt the same. B had reached out to the barn manager and arranged for us to go out and meet some horses that were available for partboard, which allows you to pay a monthly fee to ride the horse several times a week. I was incredibly excited. We drove out to the barn and met with the owner of several beautiful horses. After scanning the paddock, my eyes landed on a beautiful black Frisian gelding named Guinness,

[00:01:53] coincidentally B's favorite beer. It seemed like it was meant to be. I spent the next few Sundays out at the barn getting to know Guinness and taking him on trail rides. I felt blissful. Several weeks went by, and on another Sunday, I was sitting in bed in the middle of the afternoon, binging on Netflix. B came into the room and suggested that I go out to the barn. I burst into tears. I didn't want to go to the barn. I wanted to lay in bed.

[00:02:20] As of late, all I ever wanted to do was lay in bed, and I didn't know why. B consoled me, and he assured me that everything was okay, that if I didn't want to go ride, I didn't have to, that we all needed a day to lay in bed every now and then. I forced a smile through sobs and nodded, despite knowing that every now and then was turning into a regular occurrence for me. Depression takes its toll on a relationship. For the next several months, I was miserable to be around.

[00:02:50] B would never say it, but I knew I was. I was always fatigued, argumentative, hostile, and inattentive. I was failing as a partner, daughter, and friend. I bailed on plans in favor of staying inside and isolating myself from those closest to me. When our friends would come over for Sunday football, I was locked away in our room sleeping or watching mindless reality TV. While I had never been an extrovert, this behavior was bizarre for me, and it started to cause serious trouble.

[00:03:21] Eventually, I began picking fights with B, where fights didn't need to be picked. I was accusatory and insecure. Breakups were threatened on several occasions. We'd been together for three years at this point, though we had known each other for much longer. It was becoming very apparent to B that something was wrong. I wasn't the laid-back, fun, creative person that he had known for years. While I hadn't yet named what was going on with me, I knew it was something.

[00:03:47] I knew that if I wanted my relationship with B to get better, I had to get better first. With a diagnosis came relief. And embarrassment. I made an appointment with my doctor and explained how I'd been feeling. He asked if I had any family history of depression. I did. My grandmother has a chemical imbalance that requires her to use medication. He suggested that my symptoms were depressive, and perhaps seasonal,

[00:04:12] and prescribed me a low dose of a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor, SSRI. I was instantly torn between being relieved that there was an explanation for my recent behavior, and ashamed that I was being diagnosed with a mental health condition and prescribed an antidepressant. I remember calling B and being embarrassed as I danced around the topic of the medication. I asked him how his day was going, asked what he wanted to do for dinner that evening,

[00:04:39] pretty much anything that would stall the inevitable conversation we were about to have. Finally, I admitted that the doctor thought that I had depression and prescribed me something. I insisted I didn't want to be medicated and that the doctor was probably overreacting. I said anything I could in hopes that B would validate my decision. He didn't. Instead, he did something far more powerful. He accepted the diagnosis and encouraged me to listen to the doctor and take the medication.

[00:05:07] He reminded me that a mental health condition is no different than any other condition or injury. You would treat a broken arm, wouldn't you? This is no different. Hearing B's reassurance and his logical approach to the situation made me feel more comfortable and hopeful. I filled my prescription, and within weeks, we both noticed a significant change in my overall mood, outlook, and energy. My head felt clearer, I felt happier, and I was regretful for not seeking treatment sooner.

[00:05:37] Getting real about depression and getting treatment If you're currently in a relationship and living with depression, here are some tips that might help. Communicate Communication with your partner is key. Be open about how you're doing. Ask for help If you need help or support, ask for it. Your partner can't read your mind. Know that it's okay to not be okay. Not every day will be rainbows and sunshine, and that's all right. And educate

[00:06:06] Knowledge is power. Do your research. Learn what you can about your type of depression and your medication. Make sure your partner is educated on the topic, too. This is my depression diagnosis story. I'm lucky to have someone as understanding and non-judgmental as B, who I'm now lucky enough to call my fiancé. If you're living with depression, know that it becomes a whole lot easier when you have the support of your loved ones. You just listened to the post titled

[00:06:35] How Depression Almost Broke My Relationship By NewLife Outlook of Healthline.com

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[00:07:32] Search NSDR and look for the one from Optimal Living Daily. Alright, and a really impactful story here today. Now, maybe we haven't been with someone as they're experiencing their depression, or experience depression ourselves, in or out of a relationship. But, while this story is an amazing display of how to handle either side of it, we also might want to reflect on this possibility before it's happened.

[00:08:00] As we strengthen our commitment to someone, we might ask ourselves, am I truly ready to love and support this person if they experience this, depression, or something worse? Likewise, do I believe this person can truly love me and support me if I experience this, this depression, or something worse? Surely we can only anticipate so much, and obviously we can grow in our ability to offer and receive love and support.

[00:08:29] But, when we're fully offering ourselves over to someone, we want to be realistic about what that might entail. That's going to do it for today though, everybody. Thanks a lot for joining me today and listening through the end. I hope you enjoyed this story as much as I did. Have a great rest of your day, and I'll see you again tomorrow for both our regularly scheduled episode and our Sunday bonus episode. That's where your optimal life awaits.