2914: Fake It Till You Make It: Your Life Matters by Krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui on A Life In Progress

[00:00:00] [SPEAKER_00]: This is Optimal Living Daily Episode 2914, Fake It Till You Make It, Your Life Matters by Krista OReilly-Davi-Digui of a Life In Progress.ca and your narrator, Justin Malik, reading you blogs every single day of the year including holidays.

[00:00:16] [SPEAKER_00]: Without further ado, let's get right to it as we optimize our life. Fake It Till You Make It, Your Life Matters by Krista OReilly-Davi-Digui of a Life In Progress.ca

[00:00:32] [SPEAKER_00]: It's easy to look around and tell ourselves the story that everyone else is happy, thriving, confident.

[00:00:38] [SPEAKER_00]: But no matter our age or stage in life, we carry insecurities and walk through seasons of pain.

[00:00:44] [SPEAKER_00]: We learn as we go. We come up to Crossroads where we must make the decision to live again, or try again, or reach out again.

[00:00:53] [SPEAKER_00]: We fake it till we make it.

[00:00:55] [SPEAKER_00]: It vends your weights, but what if I don't have what it takes? The world is brimming with interesting possibility, but what if I'm not good enough at anything?

[00:01:04] [SPEAKER_00]: Everyone else appears to know what they're doing, but what if I fail?

[00:01:08] [SPEAKER_00]: I thought I knew where I was headed, but life threw me a curveball and now I wonder if I even fit anywhere.

[00:01:14] [SPEAKER_00]: Everyone else seems to have figured out this thing called life, why do I find it so hard?

[00:01:18] [SPEAKER_00]: I failed again. I don't know if I can keep going.

[00:01:22] [SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes you need to just show up and fake it till you make it.

[00:01:26] [SPEAKER_00]: You dream of motherhood only to discover that this gig is painfully hard some days.

[00:01:31] [SPEAKER_00]: There are seasons that you aren't even sure you like your own kids. You feel like a failure, so ungrateful.

[00:01:38] [SPEAKER_00]: Here you receive what you desperately desired, and yet you feel depressed and stuck.

[00:01:42] [SPEAKER_00]: She died, and now you don't know if you want to live without her, getting up in the morning hurts.

[00:01:48] [SPEAKER_00]: It takes every ounce of energy to just brush your teeth and force yourself to eat.

[00:01:53] [SPEAKER_00]: Christmas is coming, but it feels meaningless. You feel no joy, only the pain of separation.

[00:01:59] [SPEAKER_00]: Your offers keep getting rejected, and your boss does out healthy doses of criticism never praise.

[00:02:05] [SPEAKER_00]: Then you mess up for real, and this only confirms the suspicion you had all along that you weren't no good, a failure.

[00:02:12] [SPEAKER_00]: Your shame is heavy on your chest so that you have a hard time functioning, maybe there is no point in even trying.

[00:02:19] [SPEAKER_00]: You're aging now, and wonder if you'll always be alone.

[00:02:22] [SPEAKER_00]: At least before you had your youth, and that offered you the possibility of someone finding you desirable, you just want to feel loved, wanted, cherished even.

[00:02:31] [SPEAKER_00]: Is that honestly too much ask? The chronic illness has finally caught up with you. No more hiding it.

[00:02:38] [SPEAKER_00]: Your body doesn't work properly anymore. You can even pretend to keep up with everyone else.

[00:02:43] [SPEAKER_00]: Is this small your future holds? This is as good as it gets. It hurts to move when you don't want to appear in needy, surely in one by one your friends will drop away.

[00:02:52] [SPEAKER_00]: You've built a successful career in pat of the retirement fund, and you are so incredibly unhappy, dying inside.

[00:03:01] [SPEAKER_00]: You want a different path, a simpler path. But if you tell the truth, she might leave you, and the kids might resent you. You see no way out.

[00:03:10] [SPEAKER_00]: So much pain and suffering. It isolates.

[00:03:13] [SPEAKER_00]: But look around. Surely there's not a person milling around you that walks unscathed. This is part of the human experience to be touched by pain, by insecurity, to walk through valleys.

[00:03:26] [SPEAKER_00]: You are not alone in this. You are not a failure because you struggle. You are not too broken to deserve a life.

[00:03:32] [SPEAKER_00]: And there are no quick fixes, magic bullets, easy answers, sometimes life hurts and you hurt. You don't know what to do about it.

[00:03:41] [SPEAKER_00]: So you fake it to make it. I don't mean lie or pretend that all is well. I mean put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing.

[00:03:50] [SPEAKER_00]: And then the next until the tiniest tendril hope begins to wind itself through the darkness. Until you see a flicker of light far off yet, but you see it nonetheless.

[00:04:00] [SPEAKER_00]: Do the next right thing. You get out of bed in the morning, open blinds, make your coffee, you force yourself to express gratitude to notice beauty.

[00:04:09] [SPEAKER_00]: You grieve but decide that you are at a crossroads and your choice is to live. So you reach out.

[00:04:16] [SPEAKER_00]: You permit another broken human being to come alongside and love you for a while because we told you that you have to do life alone anyway.

[00:04:22] [SPEAKER_00]: You lay those broken dreams on the shelf and remind yourself that if your womb is closed then there are other good plans for you. Beautiful plans.

[00:04:31] [SPEAKER_00]: Your worth is not wrapped up in motherhood. You tell the truth about all your anger and frustration. You practice self-care and tiny ways, maybe they feel insignificant but you do it anyway because you read that in matters.

[00:04:44] [SPEAKER_00]: You take an abs and get a babysitter so you can take breaks from the constant need of other people. If one small conversation about how you are feeling just one, you begin telling the truth about the life you want.

[00:04:57] [SPEAKER_00]: You stop trying to keep up the perfect image. You stop working so much and decide that even if you can't walk away from it all right now, you can take baby steps closer to the person you want to be.

[00:05:08] [SPEAKER_00]: You smile yourself in the mirror and it feels fake and it is right now. But you do it anyways.

[00:05:14] [SPEAKER_00]: You realize no man can fill the deep, aching hole in you. You practice speaking to yourself with tenderness like you would your best friend.

[00:05:22] [SPEAKER_00]: You can be your best friend for now. You get a Christmas tree and decorate the house.

[00:05:27] [SPEAKER_00]: Now for you, but there are still children in the house and they need to keep living even if their mom is gone and they need you to keep living too.

[00:05:35] [SPEAKER_00]: Fill your home with truth, plastered all over on sticky notes, scroll notes on your mirror, life-giving music, pulsings through the place.

[00:05:44] [SPEAKER_00]: Just fake it till you make it. One foot in front of the other, one breath and then another. You are needed. Your life matters.

[00:05:58] [SPEAKER_00]: You just listen to the post titled, fake it till you make it. Your life matters by crystal Riley Davy Deguy of a life in progress.ca.

[00:06:07] [SPEAKER_00]: Take it a crystal. She's been through a lot. This post should some light into that.

[00:06:12] [SPEAKER_00]: Come by a life in progress.ca to check out her work and a supporter.

[00:06:15] [SPEAKER_00]: And I'm glad she made the distinction of fake it till you make it. Versus lying or pretending that all as well, because that wasn't a message of running away from how you feel.

[00:06:26] [SPEAKER_00]: If you glaze over this or just read the title, you might get that impression, but it's far from it.

[00:06:31] [SPEAKER_00]: Hopefully this message brought you some comfort or assurance that your life matters, or maybe it'd be great for someone who's going through tough times and needs to hear this message.

[00:06:39] [SPEAKER_00]: You can send this episode or the blog post alone too, then I'm sure they appreciate it.

[00:06:45] [SPEAKER_00]: So thank you for doing that. Thank you for listening and being here every day and subscribing to the show.

[00:06:49] [SPEAKER_00]: Have a great rest of your day, and I'll see you back here tomorrow. Where you're off to my life.